pink_me1010

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 07:02:57 GMT

I have so much willpower but I fell and let me tell you this never happens and I started eating this dip but it is the only thing I will fall for
15 ml 85 cal aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa so bad
So this is my plan I am going to work out lots tonight , tons tomorrow and even more the next night

Breakfast
broccoli 35 cal
low cal dressing 20 cal
Yogurt 20 cal
Diet dr. pepper 5 cal

lunch
Yogurt 20 cal
Dip 1200 [do not want to go under so it may be a bit high

supper
Watermelon 150 cal
Crisper's 110 cal
Popsicle 90 cal
This peeper thing with cheese in it 40 cal
1690 cal

fuck fuck fuck fuck aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
exercise exercise

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 22:48:02 GMT

Breakfast
broccoli 35 cal
low cal dressing 20 cal
Yogurt 20 cal
Diet dr. pepper 5 cal

80 cal so far
Today I am going to stay under 300 cal

Pilates and lots of the sauna belt

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 22:47:19 GMT

Breakfast

140 cal granola bar

Lunch
Sub way
Fat Free Honey Mustard 40 cal
Swiss (2 rectangles) 50 cal
Tomatoes 15 cal
Calories in Pickles - Sweet 40 cal
Cucumber 10 cal
lettuce 20 cal
Wheat Bread but I ripped it all off except for 20 cal
Diet coke 5cal
two sips of bubble tea 60 cal
2 pickles 9 cal
200 cal of little bits

609 cal so far

This is not a good day but I don't have to worry I worked it all off staying up till 7 am making sure, did not go to bed last night

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 19:16:52 GMT

h: 5'7
cw. 120
hw: 123
lw: 98

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 04:21:42 GMT

Dear Ana you destroyed me,
You came and forgot to ask.
Your rigidity took over me,
You succeeded at your task.

You hated everything inside me,
The outside even worse.
My weight was the biggest issue,
You set up your first curse.

Quickly you diminished me,
A frail girl I became.
No matter how thin you made me,
Eating led me to shame.

You not only put my health at risk,
And the life of my family too.
I never even imagined
The damage you could do.

You began to haunt me everywhere,
In the shower was the first place you hit.
You pulled my hair out one by one,
A fist full I could fit.

You made my eyes look empty,
My energy was no more.
They say I looked like a survivor,
Out of the concentration camps in the Second World War.

You took away my social life,
The coldness was too strong.
But every time I bathed you off,
You'd come back even colder; it didn't take you long.

The worst was during ketosis,
You made my breath smell horrid.
But mints had XX calories,
You knew I wouldn't go for it.

You began to make me wonder,
Were you really worth this pain?
It was either you or my existence,
Your skinny body is obviously not my frame.

You didn't agree with my decision,
But I said Fuck you this isn't me.
Your self-esteem is killing us,
This isn't who I want to be.

The models in the magazines,
The friends you wish to be.
No matter how tall and skinny they are,
They will never come close to being me.

It took me a while to accept,
That it will take long for you to depart.
But promise you will be nice to me,
And not show up on any of my charts.

You didn't do well in therapy,
Those people are a tad bit crazy.
But they care for you and me, they do!
My courage did amaze me.