Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in pink_me1010's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
1:00 am	I have so much willpower but I fell and let me tell you this never happens and I started eating this dip but it is the only thing I will fall for 15 ml 85 cal aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa so bad So this is my plan I am going to work out lots tonight , tons tomorrow and even more the next night Breakfast broccoli 35 cal low cal dressing 20 cal Yogurt 20 cal Diet dr. pepper 5 cal lunch Yogurt 20 cal Dip 1200 [do not want to go under so it may be a bit high supper Watermelon 150 cal Crisper's 110 cal Popsicle 90 cal This peeper thing with cheese in it 40 cal 1690 cal fuck fuck fuck fuck aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa exercise exercise (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
4:47 pm	Breakfast broccoli 35 cal low cal dressing 20 cal Yogurt 20 cal Diet dr. pepper 5 cal 80 cal so far Today I am going to stay under 300 cal Pilates and lots of the sauna belt (Comment on this)
Monday, June 26th, 2006
4:44 pm	Breakfast 140 cal granola bar Lunch Sub way Fat Free Honey Mustard 40 cal Swiss (2 rectangles) 50 cal Tomatoes 15 cal Calories in Pickles - Sweet 40 cal Cucumber 10 cal lettuce 20 cal Wheat Bread but I ripped it all off except for 20 cal Diet coke 5cal two sips of bubble tea 60 cal 2 pickles 9 cal 200 cal of little bits 609 cal so far This is not a good day but I don't have to worry I worked it all off staying up till 7 am making sure, did not go to bed last night (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
1:15 pm	h: 5'7 cw. 120 hw: 123 lw: 98 (Comment on this)
Monday, June 12th, 2006
10:21 pm	Dear Ana you destroyed me, You came and forgot to ask. Your rigidity took over me, You succeeded at your task. You hated everything inside me, The outside even worse. My weight was the biggest issue, You set up your first curse. Quickly you diminished me, A frail girl I became. No matter how thin you made me, Eating led me to shame. You not only put my health at risk, And the life of my family too. I never even imagined The damage you could do. You began to haunt me everywhere, In the shower was the first place you hit. You pulled my hair out one by one, A fist full I could fit. You made my eyes look empty, My energy was no more. They say I looked like a survivor, Out of the concentration camps in the Second World War. You took away my social life, The coldness was too strong. But every time I bathed you off, You'd come back even colder; it didn't take you long. The worst was during ketosis, You made my breath smell horrid. But mints had XX calories, You knew I wouldn't go for it. You began to make me wonder, Were you really worth this pain? It was either you or my existence, Your skinny body is obviously not my frame. You didn't agree with my decision, But I said Fuck you this isn't me. Your self-esteem is killing us, This isn't who I want to be. The models in the magazines, The friends you wish to be. No matter how tall and skinny they are, They will never come close to being me. It took me a while to accept, That it will take long for you to depart. But promise you will be nice to me, And not show up on any of my charts. You didn't do well in therapy, Those people are a tad bit crazy. But they care for you and me, they do! My courage did amaze me. (Comment on this)